2026-06-27

I'm stuck in an energy loop that manifests in a strange way. I'm trying to find a house and I've found some apartments. I have access to them but someone wants to revoke my access. It's not a person per se but a set of forces. I'm having an argument with them and they get furious and say they're going to revoke my access and abandon me. I'm furious too and I reply "as if you weren't going to do that anyway!" I try to catch their energy but it's illusory, every time I think I've caught it, it escapes me. It's self reinforcing. It's like I have to prove my right to be there and I'm furious. It's very clear that no one is going to win with this register and the only way out of it is to stop feeding that energy.

I'm in some kind of amphitheater where there are several wooden chairs in the audience. On stage there are people dancing. I'm sitting between a woman and a man I know but we're not friends. The woman, who is sitting on my left, keeps pushing my chair to the front rows. We're in the third row and she pushes me to the first. Then a lady who is part of the organization comes and says I shouldn't be in the first row, that I'm better in the third and pushes me back to the third. I'm right in the center of the rows. Back in the third row I'm furious with the woman sitting next to me and I shout at her and tell her she can't push me, that I decide where I sit.

After the show I catch a ride with some very nice black ladies. I don't know why but I had to leave my car there and I'm thinking about how I'm going to get it because this is on the other side of the river and I think that in the worst case I can take public transport and then come back by car. One of the ladies, sitting on my right in the back seat, says something that gives me the idea she's offering to give me a ride but I don't know if she's offering to pick me up at home and bring me here, because she lives on this side of the river.

I arrive at a place that looks a bit like shacks but maybe it's because of the flood that's here. The floor is all muddy and I have to cross a street full of mud to get to the building where I have my things. I don't know how deep the mud is and I'm surprised at myself when I cross it without fear and without thinking about what I might step on or even the sensation. The mud comes up to my knees and I feel the texture on my legs. I think my things aren't near the door so they should be ok and I can just rinse my legs in the water later. This gives the impression of being a place where I left my things but not necessarily my house.

I don't know if this place is in Basel. I just know that I'm looking at a map of Basel. I've decided to tell Aunt M that I'm looking for an apartment in Basel because she and Raph live there so maybe they know of something. I'm looking at the map to see the name of the area I want to live in, which is the name Nina told me because it's the name of the lake next to which she lives. I want to live near her so I can walk to her house. On the map the lake is right at the edge of the map and has a small island next to it. They all look like small islands but right next to the lake is a small island at the edge, and that's where I want to find a house."